Everyone go see Coraline!

I've given up on explaining why I'm a complete slacker about blogging.
Anyway...my excuse is one word....Facebook.
What the hell did I do without that site?

But I digress. I'm very sick, worst cold I've had in years. Its kept me out of commission for days now, so I have very little to report.

But...I will say this. GO SEE CORALINE!!!

Besides looks amazing, with its tiny knits and gothic flair. Besides being based on the writings of one of my favorite people Neil Gaiman.
Besides looking like something I will completely fall head over heels in love with.

Go because my awesome sister-in-law was an animator on the film! I am very lucky to have a sister-in-law that I get along so perfectly with, who is such a lovely person, who I would be friends with even if we both didn't marry into the same family. She is so talented and I'm beaming with pride for her!

Sometimes you just need beauty to keep you awake

I'm so exhausted. Emotionally and physically.
I really do need something lovely and simple to keep me going through this long December.

The holidays can go screw.

I'm seriously sick of the holidays...and Christmas...and commercials...and shopping.
I've become very grinch-like over the past two years.

I work in customer service, for a company that sells things to the general public. This is the time of year where everyone comes out of the wood work to shop. So the level of socially inept people I need to speak with on a daily basis sky rockets. I used to have faith that most people honestly care about their fellow man....until Thanksgiving hits. What makes shopping turn harmless people into raving lunatics?
December 1st I had already heard two people say we ruined their Christmas....December 1st...an entire 24 days before Christmas. If I lived in a perfect world I would have told them both to take a flying leap.

But I digress. I'm very broke, I probably will not buy Christmas presents until January. My hair is unruly and unkempt, I desperately need new shoes, and I feel really horrible about not being able to do things for AA. I don't have a family. (I have AA and his family, who I love very much, but it's just not the same.) I miss my mom.
Lots of things....

Anyway...a combination of both of the above make this time of year brutal. I avoid anything Christmas and holiday related because it just make me very depressed. I'm pretty grouchy and exhausted, so having to deal with the general public on my off time is just unbearable.

I just wish December was over. I wish I could go hide away for a month...in a cabin away from all of the commercialization and happy people.

And seriously...this is not my pity party...it's more of a verbalization of my frustration that this holiday has been shoved down my throat...and I do not like it.

Bah humbug.

I couldn't sum this day up any better

I think one of my favorite Canadian singers said it best:

Snow Falls This November
by Julie Doiron

when the snow falls this November
its such a great place to be
and when the snow falls this November
I see you and me
open the dark curtain
the sky is just getting light
we stay right where we are
all the way till tonight

through the window
we watch the snow
kids walking in snowpants
we don't go nowhere
not today, not tonight

won't tie up my hair
won't get dressed too
I'll just stay here next to you
we don't go nowhere
let the baby sleep
let the dogs rest too

through the window
we watch the show
kids walking in snowpants
we don't go nowhere
not today not tonight
watch the snow all night falls and stay here till November is through
watch the snow all night falls and stay here till November is through
watch the snow all night falls and stay here till November is through
watch the snow all night falls and stay here till November is through



It's not even winter yet and we already have snow. This is the kind of day I dreamed about all summer. It's like a little bit of Canada right here in Philly.
Sigh.
I wish I was at home knitting.

Oh...so that's what you mean...

I've never really understood the whole seasonal depression thing. Since I had depression all of the time I didn't understand how a season, or change in daylight, or change in weather, could really affect anything.

I didn't understand....until now. I've just been kind of miserable all week for a reason I can't figure out. So I'm blaming the weather, and the change in season, and the darkness that seems to loom over every hour of the day. I hope the entire winter is not like this. Its just...well...depressing!

I've also come to realize that I am incapable of putting buttons on a garment correctly. Sure, I can physically sew it on without a problem, but trying to get everything to line up is just impossible. I don't have a table, I don't want to bend over and lay everything out on the floor, and even if I had the most ideal set up I still don't think it would work.
I normally put on my buttons, wear it out once, nearly cry in hatred of the terrible job I did lining up everything, immediately cut every button off once I get home, then stitch everything back on. Sometimes this replays about three to four times, sometimes I'm lucky and everything falls into place the second time.

How can I do intricate lace and other intimidating things but I can't manage to get a button on properly? Do I subconsciously hate buttons?

I spent the last two hours placing all 9 buttons. I will wear my sweater tomorrow, hopefully not look like a complete idiot, and do the whole process again tomorrow night.
I can seam all day...but buttons....I really hate buttons.

See..I'm grouchy. I'm dealing with a low simmering cold virus, a very empty wallet that will remain that way until January, and a workplace without heat. And now....Warcrack is down for maintenance.

Sigh. Maybe sleeping is the best option at this point in time....before the sweater drives me insane.

For the love of all things holy!

My internet has been down at home for the past few days.
I had no idea how important to my life my computer was until it went down.

What am I supposed to do? Communicate over the phone? Or read a book? Or actually watch a news program??
I feel like I'm living in the dark ages.

I used my feminine wiles to get a cable guy to come visit our home tomorrow evening. It will hopefully be a signal issue that is easily fixed in our building....or i just may cry.

It's Hallow's End in World of Warcraft and I'm missing it!!!! Grumble grumble grumble.

I hate you world.

(I'll have a Rhinebeck update once my internet access decides to play nice.)

I'm Ms. Aponia if you're nasty!

Should I feel special that I have the same medical issue that Janet Jackson has?
Vestibular Migraine

I have never canceled a tour do to it though....but i have never toured so, maybe I have!

Migraines suck....add in vertigo and life is miserable. I get them at least a few times a month, and in situations of high stress I get bunches of them weekly.

.....you learn something every day....